In all our sanctuaries we sit at risk
  • Wedding words

    Two weeks ago, I gave a speech at a wedding which included this little homily :

    “In many ways and for various reasons I am not qualified to give advice on how to make a marriage work. But I will say what I have learned, that while delight in each other and caring for each other is part of the business, it is not the whole. At some point, giving ground to each other is going to be necessary and that alone can be hard. But make sure that it is not left just to the one of you to do the ground giving. And make sure, at the same time, that neither of you ever gives ground on something that is essential to your inner self, your integrity of being. While you will both have to give a little, make sure that it is not too much, so that in your marriage each of you flourishes, and the marriage makes more of both, not less of one. Stand up for each other but also to each other, for the sake of the best in both of you.  Be home for each other, but do not hide in each other. Come and see me often.”

     

     

     

     

     

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  • Riding the Hyphen – a ten minute film

    Here is the link to a short film : https://vimeo.com/76307847  It records – in my opinion beautifully – an evening event held in May this year, which combined live performances of new music and drama, an exhibition of photography, and a reading by me of some of my own poetry. The event marked my retirement from mental health social work and was held in the Large Meeting Hall of the Quaker Friends House, Euston Road, London.

    The hyphen of the title refers to whatever connects people seeking community, a bridge across turbulent space, the skills we need to secure that bridge, that precarious span built largely of hope. The image is suggested by a book by the theologian Martin Buber called “I and Thou”.

    Last year, in August, I produced a book of poems also called “Riding the Hyphen.” Here it is. Hard copy versions are available. Both last year’s book and this year’s arts event seek to celebrate and affirm the skills of human connection and creativity across difficulty and difference. The event was surely one of the last to take place in the Large Meeting Hall before that beautiful place was closed for a major re-design. Gandhi had once spoken there. So had Bertrand Russell. The evening was funded by CNWL NHS Foundation Trust and by NHS Westminster.

    The cameraman had only minimal equipment and just filmed events as they arrived in front of him and edited as he saw fit. He refused payment and wouldn’t even let me put his name on the credits. I find his editing brilliant and the result beautiful. I recommend it.

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  • Fable 11 – Jason nameless fights despair

    “Jason nameless fights despair” offers a kind of action-list for survival and is addressed to people losing hope. “Survival” is not meant just in the literal sense, hanging on, remaining animate, but in the sense of holding essential ground, of defending right principle and right action, and winning through, despite the lies, the seductive slogans, the prevailing and seemingly overwhelming sleek loutishness of our time and place.

    This is the eleventh in a series of essays called “Fables and Reflections” which consists of sixteen pieces in all. Each Fable takes just a few minutes to read. I am uploading them one at a time, every month or so. The idea behind this approach is that people running all day just to keep up, are more likely to read them in short doses and at intervals.

    But for those who prefer them all at once, here is a link to the sixteen together.

    The series was written in a time of pause after a working life in mental health care. But it is not specifically about mental health. In some ways it tries to offer a few sign-posts for times in which it seems particularly easy to get lost. Above all, perhaps, it explores the issue of what makes community healthy, what secures connection, how are we to live in the world in such a way that neither our neighbour nor our world suffer that we may briefly thrive ? In a sense you can say that, in exploring the constituents of community here, and at this time of strain and fragmentation, frantic materialism and crude zealotry,  the series asks and discusses what are the binding and redemptive skills of true human connection, the skills of being human, the skills of love.

    The series is soon to be published in book form.

    If you find value in “Fables and Reflections”, please send word of them to people you know who you think might want to read them. You could simply pass on this blog address, or, alternatively,  I am happy to e-mail them individually as attachments to people who would find that easier. I am already doing that for some people.  I would also be happy to send hard copy versions by surface mail.  If that is your preference, just send me your address.

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  • Mental Health Witness – services must co-operate in listening to the people they serve

    This proposal has been put together in the light, not just of the recent changes in NHS service commissioning, following the present government’s determination to impose yet another revolution on the NHS, but of developments generally over the past several years. It coincides too with my own pending departure from the scene after more than forty years spent as a mental health social worker. For the last twenty of those years, I have acted as the independent facilitator of a group of mental health service users.The group’s purpose has been to offer feed-back to service managers on the success or otherwise of their policies and practice.

    The proposal offers a way of consulting carefully in any given region or locality. Its focus is on people who have mental health problems and it makes no attempt to apply to other client groups. If some of the points and recommendations it makes have any pertinence beyond mental health, this will be by coincidence.

    Background and Context

    I think that, as the meaning, purpose and principle of user consultation is about keeping services attuned and receptive to the people who need their help, so the structures that support consultation activity should also, in principle and in practice, fit and mould themselves to those same people, seeking to remain attuned to them, rather than expect them to keep following service shapes, or dance to service tunes and procedures. 

    So, fairly recently, government has decided that commissioning should be based on primary care, in other words on General Practitioners. Should that mean that every Primary Care Commissioning Group (PCG) or even GP practice should now have its own user group, or user network, making previous user formations and histories redundant ? I think not. Governments keep changing NHS formations. That should not mean that structures to enable NHS accountability to its public should keep changing with them. The public should not be required to keep changing its shape to suit the service. Is that what we, the public, are for ? To serve the service ?

    But I would say that we have here an opportunity to review what else is going on in terms of “user consultation.” The latter has been a service requirement for the past twenty years. Methodology has tended to develop by default and at random. Best practice in consultation methodology is unclear, un-coordinated and – in my view – sadly conspicuous by its absence. And, yes, user consultation tends still to be built around the present shapes of services, and not the other way round.

    Furthermore, the present shapes are not just determined by the long-established split between service commissioning/monitoring on the one hand, and service provision on the other. They are also formed by a provider sector, where – especially perhaps in the area of social care – state-run provision has been largely out-sourced to the voluntary sector, with NHS provision also now a major contender in the market place. Thus, commissioners are often dealing with a range and variety of bodies and organisations running local services, organisations of all shapes and sizes, many of which will at intervals be competing against each other to win contracts to run one or another aspect of the local service provision. Some of the voluntary sector organisations will be relatively small, their remit and history purely local ; others will be large, their profile and organisation on a national scale. 

    But even this is not the whole story. Within bodies, too, there are different departments, each with its own contract and set of top-down requirements. Thus, in the Town Halls, there will still be Social Services departments, some running services ; and there will be Housing Departments as well, either directly managing supported housing for people with mental health problems, or else commissioning and monitoring voluntary sector organisations which do that job on the Department’s behalf.

    And as far as service users are concerned, each of those bodies and departments is required to be “passionate about user consultation,” and at inspection and in service tender interviews, to demonstrate that passion in their policies and practice. So each has its own system and structures for consultation, its own group to consult with, its own proud achievements to flag up on website and promotional brochure. 

    And each consults, in most cases, without any reference to what other bodies or organisations or departments are doing in their locality, even though those bodies and organisations and departments are often supporting – and consulting with – the very same people as their clients. In effect it can be said that organisations are actually competing with each other (though not admitting it) for the same limited supply of service users to consult with, to run events for, to fill a room with. This situation and conduct can fairly be described as professionally reprehensible and potentially damaging to vulnerable people. But I don’t think it’s the professionals who are mostly to blame here. I think the systems and shapes and philosophies of the market which we have all accepted, or at least assented to, make this malpractice inevitable and in order to achieve good and careful practice, we shall have to agree together to resist the prevailing tide.

    If I have long-term mental health problems and live, say, in central London, what name should I use for my location, my frame of reference and belonging ? Where does my voice, my witness, mostly belong ? In trying to work out the answer, I might be excused for feeling like Paris judging between the Beauties. Do I say, oh good, living in central London means I am a citizen of CNWL NHS Foundation Trust Land. What glorious lines ! What Beauty ! Or, oh good, I live in Westminster MIND Land. Or oh good, in Westminster Housing Department Land. Or in NHS Central London Clinical Commissioning Group Land.

    Or might I just say, I live in Westminster ?

    I want to say, I just live in Westminster. I just live in Westminster and all those different Westminster mental health services that wish and are required to consult with me on this and on that, and on everything under the sun, need to get their act together. They need to act together, for my mental health’s sake. They need to stop disturbing me, for their targets’ sake.

    In fact, we have to acknowledge that, over recent decades, huge efforts have been made to improve service co-ordination in many areas of need, including that of mental health. There have been several acts of parliament, leading to a whole series of convulsive service re-organisations, following which, once the dust settled and the wounds healed, real and genuine advances have been slowly achieved in various aspects of the service. For instance, different disciplines now work more closely together, not in separate offices, but in teams, both in clinical settings and in the community, enhancing professional communication and partnership and resulting in a more co-operative, comprehensive and responsive approach to the needs of individuals and their families. But the system keeps contradicting itself and unravelling in this aspect what it has sewn together with such labour and effort in that. As we have at last ironed out dysfunctional division and competitiveness in one part of service provision, so we make a virtue of division and competitiveness in another part. Here, different disciplines at last come together and form the beginnings of a coherent and responsive service. There, competing organisations multiply, fragmenting delivery all over again.

    I believe that, in the matter of consulting with service users – people who presumably find life difficult to cope with at the best of times – services have a duty to make their consulting as careful and as light-footed as possible. There should be a maximum of service collaboration and a minimum of bothering people. There should be a minimum of meetings. Contact should be restricted to the purely rewarding.   

    My proposal is therefore based on the premise that if I lived in Westminster, that is all that matters. In other words, the proposal will be based not on service identity, or service configuration, but on person and where person lives.

    Four Principles

    The proposal will also be based on a few principles already hinted at. They come from a longer list of principles for good practice in user consultation available in a paper called “On Our Own Terms.” The paper’s main author was Dr Jan Wallcraft. It was published by the Sainsbury Centre for Mental Health in 2003 and can still be found on the website of that organisation’s successor, called the Centre for Mental Health : http://www.centreformentalhealth.org.uk//pdfs/on_our_own_terms.pdf

    The paper was based on findings from 318 user groups around the country. It concluded that “Where involvement is done well, it can be empowering for service users/survivors and even help their recovery, but when done badly it can damage people’s mental health.” (page 77). After nearly 20 years’  experience as user support worker, I would echo that conclusion of ten years ago, although I would make some additions. When involvement is done badly, it can very seriously damage people’s mental health. Further, in my opinion, involvement done badly has become an acceptable norm.

    Ten years ago, and in recognition of the dangers, “On Our Own Terms” recommended that the list of principles it quoted should form the basis and starting point for a set of national guidelines for user involvement. It went on to propose that “The Department of Health (DoH) should then issue [those] guidelines to Strategic Health Authorities, Primary Care Trusts and NHS Trusts” across the country (page vii). That recommendation was not followed, an omission which I deplore and see as an abrogation of duty.

    Here are four principles, taken from the list put forward in Dr Wallcraft’s paper, which I would like to quote for the purposes of this proposal.

    A base of support and accountability:

    Users need their own organisations, structures and meetings to give them a base to work from.

    User involvement needs new procedures and structures:

    New procedures and structures need to be developed – user involvement cannot be simply added on to existing ones.

    Professionals go to where service users/survivors are:

    Professionals need to be prepared to go to service user/survivor groups (provided this is wanted by the members) rather than expect service user/survivor groups to send representatives to professionals’ meetings.

    Organisations should set up User Involvement policies and programmes of implementation:

    Unless there is a policy and programme and someone [independent of service hierarchies] whose job it is to implement the programme, user involvement will tend to slip off the agenda and be done badly if at all.

    Proposal

    The proposal is set out in broad brush terms.

    1.     There should be an independently supported user core group in every region. If a primary care commissioning group covers more than one region, it should support more than one user group. 

    2.     So that good practice can be shared between core groups, commissioner support should be available for liaison and sharing between them, initially at the level of the support workers, who should be experienced practitioners who know the systems well. Co –work or shared initiatives between the groups can be left to evolve as relationships evolve.

    3.     The core groups would be region-centric, not service-centric. In other words, negotiation would have to take place between all the main mental health services functioning in the region, purchaser and provider, statutory and voluntary, with a view to ensuring that each service and organisation recognise the region’s core group as the main user voice and resource they must refer to, consult and support.

    4.     The implications of this structure would be various.

    (i)     For instance, following this step, a large organisation such as an NHS Provider Trust, spanning several regions, would need to regionalise its user policies and activities and work more closely, by region, with other bodies. Trust-wide initiatives would need to be reconciled with regional accountability.   

    (ii)   The practice would cease by which, due to lack of co-ordination between organisations or managers, user events are duplicated, or their timing is not co-ordinated, or particular managers set up consultative procedures for their own particular project, without reference to practice guidelines or other initiatives going on elsewhere. All consultation requests would go to the core-group in the first instance. The group would only accept requests which are manageable.

    5.     Regional core groups would not replace other user groups operating in their region, but the latter would now feed into the core-groups, or stay closely in touch with them, or have representatives sitting on them, so that all services and service managers in the region make contact for consultation with just the one centre, the regional core-group, well supported and strongly and independently based.

    6.     The methodology of careful user consultation needs good practice guidelines. But even good quality consultation can be a clumsy tool and should be looked at with suspicion, not as an automatic virtue. If I need help, maybe through traumatic times, I do not necessarily then want to keep being interviewed on my experience ; in just the same way, if I am eating out, I do not necessarily want to keep being interrupted mid-mouthful with “everything all right ?”

    Every effort should be made to utilise information already available, so that consulting can be limited to creative innovation and safe practice. For instance, each multi-disciplinary Care Programme Approach meeting (CPA) is an opportunity to identify and record an individual’s experience of services. If that information constantly coming in could only be collated through IT, much asking of further questions would become instantly unnecessary.

     

     


     

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  • Mental Health Witness – how to consult with people who have turned to you for help

    Here is a version of a message just written to a mental health manager who recently sent me a draft-“user involvement strategy” being put together for the service where she works. I am soon to retire from a part-time post as free-lance consultant to a group of mental health service users. My task has been to facilitate the process by which their experience of local services is fed through to and influences the people who manage those services.

    “As you know, you have caught me on my way to the exit, so to speak, and my response will no doubt be affected, not just by my proximity to the vast outside, but also by a sense of having left much undone and un-achieved. There are important battles still to be fought, in my view, which I have failed to win ;  major points that need to be seen and understood, of which I have failed to convince people.

    I will not go on at length here, because I have gone on at length elsewhere ; and I will continue to go on, as I depart, and after I have departed. For, somehow, this topic goes to the heart of what the mental health services are about and of the realities they are dealing with. Thus, I talk quite a lot about user consultation on the site of a charity I run called Hyphen-21. I shall be going back to the relevant sections there over the next few months, but have no reason to change much. I need only add and update. The link is http://www.hyphen-21.org/publicsite/consultation-with-the-users-of-care-services

    I am also quite often writing about mental health on this blog these days.  The present piece will the second post directly about consultation.

    Now to your strategy. I will make three main comments on it.

    You are to be congratulated on having one at all. I think the process of engaging on it is in itself a constructive one. I think as a statement of intent and of principle your draft document is commendable, although I would make one suggestion.

    This suggestion is that you should look over it again with the following line of thought in mind, in order to see whether that thought would change either tone or phraseology in any way. I will start the line of thought with a true story. I came off my bike some while ago, straight over the handle bars and onto my head, mercifully helmeted. As I lay on the tarmac, flat on my back, I was not thinking of choice, which hospital I might prefer, which cuisine, which décor ; I was not thinking of “user empowerment” and how much involvement I would be given in my care, how many questionnaires I would have the chance to fill in. I was helpless and needy. I just wanted the nearest hospital and I wanted a safe pair of hands for the support of my head, hands skilled, confident and careful.

    Your document is full of your concern to listen. But is it also full enough of your belief in your own skills and ability to hold me when I am in a state which needs your holding ? I think there is a danger in some of the language that gets used in this area, that it can actually mislead and even intimidate. If I break my head, I don’t want to feel that in doing so I have just taken on responsibility for running the NHS. Or that the people who will be holding my broken head will be so nervous of failing to listen to my directions, that their hands will tremble…

    In proposing that line of thought, I am honestly not criticising your paper. I am just suggesting it as an extra filtration stage, in case it is useful. I think clear boundaries and very clear statements are important.

    The next comment is more an observation. It is that your strategy has a slightly different backdrop or context than many other mental health services, I believe. The difference is that you are working from a small network of community mental health centres. Many of these centres’ clients have attended there for several years. The centres work to sustain these people in the community, who would not otherwise cope without frequent relapse into hospital.  So centre members know each other well, and meet staff members and each other very often. This makes for greater confidence of inter-action, greater freedom in the expressing of views, a stronger sense of belonging, of being in community. In a sense, “consultation“ is endemic in the way you work and have always worked. So power to your elbow, in this brave new world of ever deeper cuts, ever glossier and more delusional slogans, and ever more precarious professional standing.

    The last comment is that your strategy must eventually address the issue of methodology. Ultimately it is how it is done, how the principles are implemented, that requires the greatest thought, and – in my view – most warrants a binding code of professional good practice. For I think there is much bad and damaging practice methodology in consultation, for all sorts of reasons. Paradoxically, the whole target and brownie points culture whose aim is to maintain and measure good standards, is probably the main culprit. Rushed managers look to the tick in the box rather than to the person in front of them, to the quantity of people in the room, rather than to the quality of communication in the space between people in that room. 

    We need to address the fact that user consultation can actually do damage to the people concerned unless conducted with skill and care. It cannot just be a set of good intentions, or for that matter mere blind obedience to a set of directives from above. It must involve suitable methodologies, using creative practitioner skills, methodologies which support and exemplify the respectful listening and responsiveness and sensitivity for which consultation was conceived in the first place. In other words, the means of consultation are core to the end of consultation. Without excellence of means, the end will be meaningless (just as having a “user” in every professional committee is, in my opinion, largely meaningless, and even perhaps irresponsible).”

     

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  • Mental Health Witness – malpractice in mental health consultation

    Health and Social Services in the UK often run open meetings for people who use mental health services. Such meetings are seen as opportunities to give people information on new policy developments, as well as letting them “have their say.”

    By definition, an open meeting means anyone might come, in whatever state they are in. An invitation to an open meeting is an open invitation.

    But, somehow, the whole consultation ethos seems riddled with forgettings on the part of the organisers of events of this kind.

    Many of the recent developments and policies are very complicated and difficult to understand. In recent years, and especially under the Coalition Government, they have also been coming brutally thick and fast, frightening, bewildering and deeply distressing for people dependent on a stable care system for their sustenance, for their ability to take part in community life, for their peace of mind.

    And every manager in charge of this or that strand of rapid-fire innovation is required to “consult with the users” on it. So of course they comply, often using open meetings.

    The first forgetting, very common, is how many other meetings are being organised , often at around the same time, called by other managers, each running a different  project, each instructed to be “passionately keen for users to have their say”, but forgetting that an uncoordinated scatter of momentous consultations can be merely disturbing for people already in a fragile state, without telling them anything that can be usefully taken in.

    But now a couple of questions :

    Is an open meeting, with any number of people round you, the best place and way for taking in a complex piece of information, with possibly worrying implications ?

    Is your average over-worked, middle- or even senior- manager also a born teacher and communicator, experienced and expert at speaking confidently in a public setting, and able to put over in crystal clear terms complex new realities to people in all sorts of difficult mental states, sitting there listening to you while also dealing with the side-effects of all sorts of psychiatric medication ?

    The answer to both those questions is absolutely no. I can personally testify to the fact that it is very common that people come out of these meetings a great deal more confused and anxious than when they went in.

    Let us progress now towards a few more questions :

    On paper, the “open meeting” looks to be a welcoming and inclusive idea, a level playing field where all of us can gather together as equals. Attendance there is surely a “right.” But, to repeat, we are talking here about people with mental health problems and an “open meeting” is an invitation to anyone, in any kind of mental state, to attend. It is not kind or inclusive or “level” to ignore that fact. It means that individuals might come into the room behaving in a way that’s difficult for others to tolerate ; or unclear what the meeting is for, but wanting mainly support and comfort ; or simply finding that a room full of strangers is difficult to cope with. Some people are not iron-clads, able to plough on, whatever the conditions ; some people are not meeting-junkies, scampering avidly from boardroom to boardroom.

    Are there appropriate resources of skill and experience carefully set up to help such people on these occasions ?  Is sufficient support available to ensure that everyone leaves the event in a reasonable state ? Do the organisers check on how people are, as they leave ?

    Again, the answer to all these questions, in the vast majority of cases, is no. Instead, the organisers count how many people came, and if those numbers were large, they congratulate themselves and go home glowing, knowing that their seniors will be pleased. They do not consider how individuals might actually be feeling as they head back to their flats and bed-sits, often so isolated and sparse.

    I believe that the open meeting set up for the purpose of consulting with users of the mental health services is usually a mistake, and worse than that, a mistake which can reasonably be termed as wanton and irresponsible, putting numbers and the ticking of boxes before people’s mental welfare. I believe it is set up in denial of the fact and reality that people with mental health problems experience mental health problems.

    The aim of consultation with users of mental health services is of course to maximise a service’s sensitivity to, empathy with, and appropriateness for, the people who use it. There is a great deal of bitter irony in the fact that the means and methodology so often used for consulting is the precise opposite of the end it seeks –in other words,  insensitive, un-empathic and inappropriate.  

    Consultation with mental health service users has been a requirement for nearly twenty years now. With that in mind, I shall finish this piece with three more questions relevant to the subject, followed by my own answers to those questions, followed by three thoughts. 

    In all these years of practice in consulting, what has been learned about how to do it well ? How much harm has been done, by people who did not mean harm but have boxes to tick and funders to     impress ? How can the malpractice described above still be operating ?

    I would answer : virtually nothing has been learned on how to do it well ; a great deal of harm has been done, much of it serious ; too many employees of the care services seem willing and able to separate themselves off from their own skills and knowledge of what is right, in order to conform to what seems to win approval.

    And here are my thoughts : consultation is about listening. Listening is a skill, a quietness, an act of caring and creativity, a true and open being with. As a function of command-style management, driven and harried, user consultation is a dangerous nonsense.

                                                                                                                                                                                                          


     

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  • Cat vies with Hard Drive for my soul

    A psychiatrist called Iain McGilchrist has written what in my opinion is an extraordinary and important book called “The Master and his Emissary – The Divided Brain and the Making of the Western World.”  I feel instantly at home with, and liberated by, its central thesis. Here is a quote from the blurb on the back of the book : “We need both hemispheres [of the brain] : but, McGilchrist argues, the left hemisphere has become so far dominant that we’re in danger of forgetting everything that makes us human. Taking the reader on an extraordinary journey through Western history and culture, he traces how the left hemisphere has grabbed more than its fair share of power, resulting in a society where a rigid and bureaucratic obsession with structure, narrow self-interest and a mechanistic view of the world hold sway, at an enormous cost to human happiness and the world around us.”

    More information on both man and book can be found by entering his name on Google and going to his website which is easily found.

    Other dualities are suggested by this revelatory finding, but all of those are concept, image, or picture. The tension between the hemispheres of the human brain is, by contrast, a plain discovery from which conclusions are inescapable. Myself I am wary of over-simplifying McGilchrist’s findings and conclusions, but have been moved to write a poem based on this primal duality and struggle which he has been studying for so long. I have dedicated the poem (or poems) to him and to my great pleasure he has accepted the compliment. Here below is the poem, following a short preamble

     

    Cat vies with Hard Drive for my Soul

     

    This poem is suggested by the bookThe Master and his Emissary: The Divided Brain and the Making of the Western World.” by the psychiatrist Iain McGilchrist, to whom the poem is dedicated. He writes about the two sides of the human brain and the tension between them, that tension and relationship reflected in the worlds we have made around us as a race. For the purposes of this poem, I have called the brain’s right hand side “Cat” and the left hand side “Hard-Drive.”

     

    A Confession of Bias

     

    I wish myself cat

    cats-eyes

    cats-ears

     

    I wish myself cat-alive

    cat alert

    sonar centre

     

    electric

    lithe advance.

    Hard-drive blunts me

     

    splits

    and thickens me

    Hard-drive weighs on me

     

    like a hump,

    an imperialist                        

    goiter.

      

    Cat asleep

     

    Ears at attention

    sharp as bayonets

     

    still scanning

    reading.

     

    And eyes though closed

    still reckon

     

    keeping the captain             

    abreast of all our weathers

     

    as he paces

    alone

     

    on the bridge.

    Any time now

     

    those eyes will blaze

    open

     

    and cat will rise

    and crouch

     

    and bare teeth 

    and pounce.

                                                

    Hard Drive in the bath

     

    Hard-drive specialises

    in mean look

    and fierce straight line.

     

    Curves dismay him

    They hint at softness

    and lying back in the bath.

     

    You dont bathe for joy,

    proclaims Hard Drive, but for profit,

    an increase of power and standing.

     

    So yes, bathe often

    but with vigour

    and never lie back.

      

    Hard-drive comes alive

     

    Harddrive waits for nobody

    and never gives way.

     

    To pause is life-threatening

    and to make allowance for other life

     

    risks invasion                        

    by gargoyle

     

    possession

    by Dracula.

     

    I shall force my will

    on the landscape.

     

    I shall stamp myself on the earth

    like a brand.

     

    Hey mother, do you see

    this corpse at my feet

     

    this victim at my hands ?

    Until the moment

     

    of victory

    I had not arrived

     

    O mother, mother,

    I was not born.

     

    Cat in the Sun

     

    Cat glories in the sun.

    He sees it a mile off

    and knows he belongs there.

     

    He rolls in the hot dust

    and delights in that sliding, grain by grain,

    inwards to the skin

    to play among the follicles.

     

    Hard Drive cant bear to look.

    Instead he fixes on the horizon

    in case typhoon is threatening there

    or the barbarian horse

    have broken through at last.

     

    Hard Drive busies himself

    on his preventive measures,

    glancing with contempt

    to where Cat lounges,

    absorbing the suns heat,

    cat ears pointy,

    muscles flexed.

      

    Hard Drive begs to go hunting

     

    Gimme routine

    rages Hard Drive,

    youre unsettling me,

    gimme something that stays

    the same, gimme repeats,

    gimme quarry to

    run down, gimme

    victims, gimme

    leave to blame.

     

    Cats astonishment

      

    Cat spends all his life astonished.

    His astonishment exhausts him

    so he sleeps and then, on waking,

    is astonished all over again.

     

    Interview

     

    So what do they make

    of each other, these two,

    Cat and Hard Drive 

    forced to travel on opposing sides

    inseparable  ?

     

    He leans over me

    grieves Cat, he positions

    himself way beyond his station.

    He eclipses my sun.

    He has tricked me into a cage.

     

    He frightens me, rages Hard Drive.

    Every pace we take on the path

    wears on me. It is like walking

    chained to a fire-storm.

    I never sleep.

     

    Conclusion

     

    It is cat who carries the weight

    of true being,

     

    who loves and suffers

    in his worn flesh

     

    the seasons, the wild heath.

     

    Hard Drive lives in panic, a life-long

    franticness to avoid

     

    being overwhelmed. The fears

    of Hard-drive

     

    will overwhelm us all.

     

    Rogan Wolf June 2013

     

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  • Fable 10 – The Pernicious Appeal of the “Strong Model”

    The Pernicious Appeal of the Strong Model explores the power and attraction of different forms of idolatry, or fundamentalism, for people in disarray or under unusual stress. But this is not a piece about “true faith” as opposed to “false faith”. Idolatry/fundamentalism is not restricted to the religious ; it extends to anyone who accepts a dogma or joins a mind-set, not primarily because it is true, but because it is comforting and offers something simple and sure, while purporting to be the truth. I think idolatry, or the “strong model,” is especially appealing to people asked to serve at a social fault-line or tense frontier, or to address realities which are complex or arouse strong feelings.

    This is the tenth in a series of essays called “Fables and Reflections” which consists of sixteen pieces in all. Each Fable takes just a few minutes to read. I am uploading them one at a time, every month or so.  The idea behind this approach is that people running all day just to keep up, are more likely to read them in short doses and at intervals.

    But for those who prefer them all at once, here is a link to the sixteen together.

    The series was written in a time of pause after a working life in mental health care. But it is not specifically about mental health. In some ways it tries to offer a few sign-posts for times in which it seems particularly easy to get lost. Above all, perhaps, it explores the issue of what makes community healthy, what secures connection, how are we to live in the world in such a way that neither our neighbour nor our world suffer that we may briefly thrive ?  In a sense you can say that, in exploring the constituents of community here, and at this time of strain and fragmentation, frantic materialism and crude zealotry,  the series asks and discusses what are the binding and redemptive skills of true human connection, the skills of being human, the skills of love.

    All being well, the series will soon be published in book form.

    If you find value in “Fables and Reflections”, please send word of them to people you know who you think might want to read them. You could simply pass on this blog address, or, alternatively,  I am happy to e-mail them individually as attachments to people who would find that easier. I am already doing that for some people.  I would also be happy to send hard copy versions by surface mail.  If that is your preference, just send me your address.

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